Stop faking it

Greetings!

Tomorrow is Mother's Day. I had actually forgotten about it. I have mixed feelings about this holiday. I was not blessed to have children, and my mother passed away when I was nineteen. So, to say this holiday can just pass me by is an understatement. Now, don't get me wrong...I'm not hating on people who are blessed to have children and a mama who is still among the land of the living. I think that's wonderful. I'm just saying for me, it has become just another day.

I know admitting that may not be popular with some folks. They may not understand that saying that is freeing for me. I am at a point in my life when I don't feel like faking it. I have to be honest with me, and I want to be honest with you. I want you to know that sometimes I hurt when I think about being childless, and that although it has been 30 years, sometimes I still want to lay my head in my mother's lap. The enemy wants us to keep pretending that everything is great when inside we hurt. But, I have learned that in order to be healed, I have to own up to those feelings. I have to expose them, so that they can no longer hold me captive.

That is one of the reasons I love the Lord so much...I can stop faking it with Him, because He knows me better than I even know myself. God has given me a permanent family in Him, and because of that...I will never be alone. It doesn't matter what I do or do not have. I am whole and complete in Him. His word says that when I do what is right, I will lack no good thing, and because His plan for me is perfect...I have everything I need. Thank you, Jesus! 

Until next time...

Be blessed